I fell off the wagon! Yes I am not perfect even though I may look it!
The culprits are bread and late night TV. Even though I battled most of my food cravings, sometimes when I am tired and feeling a little down (you know women's stuff) I get tempted.
The hubby had just bought a lovely fresh white loaf and it smelt so good. So I had two slices of toast, which in the scheme of things doesn't really seem that bad, does it? I did start to do the self-talk, guilt trip thing but then I stopped and said, "Clare, you are just eating white bread. Really, it is not that big a deal." Two slices of toast in a few months really it is not going to kill me.
Before, I would have beaten myself up endlessly about this and felt so bad the next day that I would have eaten the rest of the loaf. But I choose just to say that it is what it is, enjoyed it and got up feeling that today is another day.
It made me realise how much I beat myself up over food; you would have thought I had eaten 5 massive bars of chocolate the way I was carrying on. I know bread is not the best thing for me, but I made a choice to eat it. We can be so hard on ourselves, sometimes for the silliest things and I am never going to be who I want to be by beating myself up, that is for sure. Was I eating through an emotion I didn't want to feel? No. Was I eating because I had been triggered by a craving? Yes! The lesson? No fresh white bread in the house, only wholemeal!
Clare is a mother of two wonderful children who fled the nest a while ago. Blessed with a high-flying husband, Clare has always been a lady who lunches. And those lunches took their toll; when her children left home, Clare realised she was a stone over weight and very lonely. She has since got her life on track and is involved is some amazing charity work. Although she still misses her kids she now has a life of her own and doesn't lunch so much.
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